How My Chronic Pain Helped Inspire Me Again

I started 2020 off just like everybody else, hopeful that it was going to be a good year. I planned for my wedding business to take off, my social media presence to increase, and my life to just get better. But it wasn't just a global pandemic that had another plan for me, instead of getting COVID I started having concerning pain in my ovaries that got more intense and debilitating as the months went on.

That started in May. Luckily the pain appears to have been caused by some compressed veins and nothing scarier. Fast forward seven months, four doctors, and three surgical procedures later and it looks like I am finally looking down the road to recovery.

During this entire ordeal, I went down a pretty dark hole because my pain had taken so much for me. I had to quit working, couldn't work on anything projects at home for longer then an hour without the pain running me back down, and could barely scour up enough motivation to finish my school work.

Basically, I spent most of 2020 laying in bed alternating between heat and ice packs. Meanwhile, my anxiety and depression just got worse and worse.

I stopped trying to make plans for the future because I didn't know when the pain would end and when I'd be able to get back to my life again.

I wanted nothing more then to go back to the person I used to be and I dwelled on it far too long before realizing that I didn't want to go back, I just wanted to move forward.

Now that I am recovering from my final procedure (in a whole new world of pain), I have used my bucket list as a way to finally look forward to something again and get me through my recovery.

On my list of course is start a blog, and that is why I wanted to base it on my journey through my bucket list because also on my list is to inspire people and I hope this does just that.

So here is to recovery and to moving forward in 2021!